Sorry when I always made u angry and hated me...
Was too insensitive to realise...
Possibly I only could not understand,
how to point out my intention
I only wanted to be ur friend...
Juz like those dark clouds... anytime I'll break down
# September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
FEEL ;
FEEL ;
FEEL ;
FEEL ;
FEEL ;
FEEL ;
FEEL ;
FEEL ;
Ever since my eyes sat upon you,
my life became "Dejavu"
I could no longer see myself
Merged into one, can't live without you.
Out of the blue, you sneaked away,
couldn't believe that your heart swayed.
Holding onto you deliberately
Denying the fact that you are gone for eternity
Lunged myself into the abyss
Floating around, feeling amiss
Memories flew by...
Thinking of you as i cry
Endless darkness filled my heart
helplessly, was torn apart
was a fool from the start
Even now, there's still you in my heart
Spacing out when thoughts of you filled my mind
People calling me back, but i denied
Living together in a world with you
Sensation of my dream came true
You couldn't accept my existence
I'm going against your resistance
Matters of heart are like Miracle
get it or not, its unpredictable
Despite the fact that I'm nowhere in your sight
I knew that you were my Mr.right
Imagining myself with you
Everything seem to be wonderful
For now, I shall gaze at you from a distance
Waiting for you to accept my existence
I'm going against my greatest fear
My confession to you, I'll make it clear
Long forgotten all these while
As if I were to fall into The Niles
Is suicide the only way
To extract this heart-racking pain away
When I was lonely, I had you
Now that your gone, Life is meaningless too.
Thoughts from you flow through my mind
the endless pain, so hard to define
What's the definition of LOVE in your opinion
Isn't it suppose to be a joyful union
Didn't realize it's could be nightmarish
caused a person to turn despicable, turn selfish
It's you who stole my heart
It's you who tore it apart
It's you who said always together
And the foolish me thought it'll last forever...
ok..that's about all continue studying... comment in on the tagboard plz....
9:32 PM
today CNA was boring anyway slept through out it...haha...PW was ok... anyway didn't pay attention lah... then maths was ok too anyway boring lah the whole day... and the class kept calling me 'Turtle' haiz...thxx to ms ung... anyway... main point
Decided to give Evelyne the sorry card today... but sheng hong eventually tot it was a joke... so she was pissed... anyway can sum ppl stop asking me to give up coz no matter how she treats me...i still believe this friendship can be salvaged... anyway when she found out i couldn't bare to see when i saw her attempting to tear it not coz its $6 but cz like... i did really wan her to forgive me...TT.TT
so no big deal... happy for u cass and xw... treasure each other alrites...gtg study for geog...
COUNTDOWN TO EXAMS>>>>>
9:21 PM
today make us do english mock exam paper... i think my standard dropped liao... this is the last week i can use my computer... coz next friday start exam le... haiz... nth to write actually... went out for lunch with my sis and company.. we ate at pizza hut..haiz nth much gtg and study now...
COUNTDOWN TO EXAMS>>>>> not giving up for sure!
10:22 PM
Last night slpt at hotel with mum... so rushed off to sch... woke up 5.30am lolz... I'm really jealous of u ppl hu have ur mum with u... so nvm over with that...
then today as per normal...history test was easy... kinda lah... 22/25 A1 i think... haiz... science 26/30 lost to genius syamim by 1/2 a mark...grrrrr... fed up!!
then PE was alrite nth special same goes for Literature... anyway the whole school hour is practically BORING.....
so after school wanted to eat mcdonald's but mum is here so i think better rush back... then reach home change get my bank book(dunno for wat) rushed off meet her at hotel...
then went to like shopping.... wdv lah... dunno wat to say today... nv do chinese hw cz no mood... and now no mood to post le...
COUNTDOWN TO EXAMS>>>>> not giving up!!
8:57 PM
then went to the hotel my mum was supposed to be but of course i found out that her flight was evening 1... was like.... OMFG!! pai seh!!
then met my 2 sis cz they thought the same way as i did...was like...LOLZ... u oso... retarded!!
anyway we went to Marine Parade CC study lah..(unable to believe... my sis studied..O.O)
I actually compete with Jita for poem writing... I WON!!! cz she couldn't finish hers... later i was update it lah...
went to ICHIBAN for lunch..Jita had curry my younger sis had half Udon( dunno wat the hell is that) i had wakame(seaweed) udon and some sushi for each of us... all for $37.50!! i paid for it!! suai seh!!
then after that didn't know where to go since we have time till 6pm++ then Jita suggested to go to TOPMAN to try out clothes...so we went..my younger sis was damn pissed!
went there we like chose sum clothes to try on... i found a blue kinda formal shirt that suits me lah...but jita couldn't find 1 that suits her so...too bad...haha...
then after that dunno wat to do to kill time so like... went to Jita hse!! watched TV and i slept!! wow! 3hrs of slp in the afternoon haha...anyway enough about saturday! anyway slpt at hotel with my mum....
woke up at 9.30am another fucking early day!! spoil my weekend!! anyway ate the hotel's breakfast quite cool though... but was still...haiz... nvm...
then till 4pm or sth we went eat chinchow and youtiao... at near my hse nth interesting...currently at Jita's hse posting this thing ,,mum downstairs toking to guardian for 2 whole hours liao...so got time to post... anyway...going off..
COUNTDOWN TO EXAMs>>>>>>> im so not giving up!!! even 0.1% of chance left
10:11 PM
Guess wat..for arts as usual! Hijacked mdm cheong's rag and container! Wakaka... then do colour wheel today... O.o btw my bunni name is BUNNIX!! then my phone ring sia then i realise it rang in during T&A oso but put the ringtone soft but nv silent! 5 missed call seh..turn out not important de!
haiz... then went for recess... ate sth different at last! kway teow!! haha...then went but fir maths lesson! :P
our mother! ms kang as usual so funny! the class was interesting lah!then chinese class the "LIU DONG MEI!!" haha... bt then she was not in gd mood so the lesson wat boring... wahh but scary seh..i was copying the hw from the screen then suddenly cyber cousin(cybelle) and evelyne sitting behind no sound de! omg! over exaggerated liao...pai seh
then after sch went to annabelle house coz later gtg tuition wif her... her mum was like massaging her sis sprained ankle! so scary!!! tt's about all... slping time so tired today later wake up again to study!! COUNTDOWN TO EXAMS>>>>>>>
SIGNING OFF>>>>> btw... im not giving up!!
6:43 PM
then the ghost story today particularly attracted my attention... told my ms chong Pw relief tcher for ms connie sun! i think she wana shen hai zi liao(give birth) haiz... no reason other reasons for her not to come rite? haiz... helpless lah!
then after that recess!! SO PACKED!! have the same old thing again FISHBALL NOODLES! lols... nth better... then after that got maths... ms kang came today.. but i nv listen to lesson fa dai(day dream) i think.. haiz then science class mrs samuel so angry for wat oso dunno... so lame lah...
then geog!!! haiz...more more hmwk that's all think wat...haiz....
after sch got tuition... sun bian go annabelle's house then have lunch there after that ate ice cream!! Woah!! the ice cream damn cool lah! mix here mix there nxt time sure eating it again!! THANKS FOR INTRODUCING ANNABELLE!!
then went to tuition but late hehe... did science then met Veronica's(damai friend) the classmate so talkative seh! haiz... then finally can go home but eventualy ended up going to PP with annabelle to pick up rebecca, annabelle's younger sis, lolz... she had ICHIBAN SUSHI then still eat KFC and a bit of burger from BURGER KING!!O.o >.<
then went buy pens and water babies for annabelle me and her sis lah altogether i think around 11.25 haiz...but the pens really nice...
SIGNING OFF.... nid to study for tmr test GD LUCK EVERY1!!!
9:33 PM
Gonna keep this blog plain and simple...
today a lot of things happen...ms kang sick i think coz nv come school...then ms sum the pick name de program so cool! haha...cassandra the name become tian hui lolz...she hated being call by her chinese name lah! haha.... cant help it de hor mei! wrote 2 new poems today... one on the given theme by cassandra! "he love me; he love me not" i think i wrote a bit off topic.. here it is...
Miles away from your heart...
Are we really that apart?
The Sweet memories that we shared..
Made me lived these days in despair...
The question is, Do you love me?
Don't know it's hard to see.
In what sense is she better than me...
Drowning helpless in the sea.
My paper heart was torn apart
nothing left but broken heart
Is Love your specialty of art?
Don't know why I'm trying so hard...
Thrown into my own world
where there was me and you
can't wait to see things unfold
to the way i want it to.
Why must you change? I LOVED you....
dedicated to cassandra( ur request! )
ok..i think its all for today...
4:51 PM
Lost Being
Jomkwan Wanitchakarnchai
TUrtle /Kingwei
Bedok south sec.
Basketballer...
Violinist on 2008
oh-6-oh-8-9ty-three
Adores.
My Handphone
My Laptop
Friends...
Someone...
Basketball
Jap.Comedy/romance anime
HATES.
Backstabbers
Wannabes
CopyCat